Pedro Arrupe finding God among the poor

I have just been sent to work as a missionary in Newark, New Jersey. I see all these poor people ... O God ... Why am I here? I feel like I will get sick in the midst of these poor people ... Why? Why have you chosen me? I mean even though they are poor, I should not cast them out of society. But I see you, God, in the midst of them. I see you working for my conversion ... I need to convert. But why? ...